Saturday, 2 September 2017

Skip to the loch my Nessie

If ever I needed encouragement to diet this photo of me and the Clyne Ness Monster would surely do it.
I met up with a new potential instructor for the Zac's women's fitness class last week and she was great. I was about to say, 'I should exercise more' when I stopped and said, 'No, I hate the word should.' Hannah, for that is her name, said, 'In the philosophy book I'm reading it suggests changing should for a more positive phrase so you could say, more exercise would do me good.'

She also mentioned that skipping is the best form of aerobic exercise. 'Start small in anything,' Hannah suggested. 'Set yourself a low target and as that becomes easy increase it.'

So I have got out my skipping rope and in so doing have reached my first target. Maybe tomorrow I'll use it.

Of course the skipping Hannah was talking about is the sort you see boxers doing: two feet jumping up at the same time. My skipping is more infant playground based.

But I'm sure that will be almost as good.

Tuesday, 29 August 2017

My absence is explained

I haven't weighed for the last few weeks. I've been struggling with my emotions and really don't need anything else to depress me. Oh, yes, and I've been eating a lot.

I can't seem to take control at the moment - which doesn't help me physically or emotionally. I seem to write a lot about this cycle but I imagine it's one that many of us struggle with. 

I was looking at photos of me on honeymoon thirty-nine years ago. Gosh, I looked good! And back then I thought how fat I was. And I want to get back to that shape. Then I tell myself that was nearly forty years ago and I can't expect that. 

It's the same when I look at young mums and think how slim they are and I want to look like that and I forget the age difference again. Not that age is an excuse for flab but life is different now and it is harder to lose weight. Remember those balloons? Each time they're blown up and let down they become a little stretchier and have a little more give and it's easier to inflate the next time.

But I don't want to keep on increasing so I must - I will - take control. This week? Who knows?

Tuesday, 11 July 2017

You have been spared!

I lost 2 lbs this week! So no photo of my flab will be forthcoming I am pleased to say. And I'm sure you're just as pleased to hear.

Not sure how this weight loss was achieved. My Fitbit scores are a little better than the week before and I did spend an hour or so in a very hot soft play centre scrambling after grandsons. I say scrambling because apparently what I was doing didn't count as steps! 

I am having a little treat tonight: we have a bowl of home-grown gooseberries in the fridge that really must be used! So crumble it is. And then I'll have the rest of the week to work it off.

But I mustn't let this go to my head. It can either be an incentive - I've made a good start and will continue - or a noncentive (or whatever the opposite is) - I've lost weight so can over-indulge frequently.

Oh yes, and I've cancelled my Rosemary Conley online membership. Waste of money really. It wouldn't have been if I'd used it properly I'm sure but being accountable to an invisible morph doesn't work for me. So now it's just you and me, people.

Tuesday, 4 July 2017

I must start trying

I say that every Tuesday morning just after I've weighed. 

Sadly my resolve fades at the sight of fresh crunchy bread or cheese or fruit or cake or anything yummy really.

But I've gained again this week. When I lose weight it's never more than a pound and usually only half, so how come when I gain weight I do so in two pound amounts?

I know the answer to this question of course: it's because of the aforementioned lack of resolve and sheer greediness.

I am currently 10st 3lbs (almost). Can you hear me sighing? Especially as I didn't 'feel' fat this week.

Right, now, I'm serious. I want you to hold me to account. If I don't lose weight this coming week then next week I will post a photo of my fat belly. If that isn't an incentive for me to be strong I don't know what is. (And you're probably hoping so too.)

Unlike my weight my Fitbit scores were down. My excuse: I just don't have time! And I forgot to wear it one day.

But enough of these excuses! I WILL do better.

Tuesday, 27 June 2017

My Fitbit thinks I've lost weight

Weigh day today. And I found I'm down one pound this week. Actually a bit less than a pound but who's counting? (Actually Rosemary Conley is.) But my Fitbit scores were much better.

73,647 total steps
27,867 more than last week

total floors
total floors
118 floors over last week
total miles
total miles
11.67 miles over last week
avg. daily calorie burn
avg. daily calorie burn
118 cals. over last week
total active minutes
total active minutes
321 min since last week
exercising this week
7 of  5 days
exercising this week
4 days since last week
avg. hrs with 250+ steps
5 of  9 hrs
avg. hrs with 250+ steps
1 hrs lower than last week
avg. resting heart rate
66 bpm
avg. resting heart rate
1 bpm since last week
weight change
3.0 lb
weight loss
same as previous week
You'll notice it says 3.0 lb weight loss. That is what would be the case if I'd eaten fewer than 1,801 calories each day. Obviously I didn't. Especially on Saturday, which was our 39th anniversary and we went out for a meal. A rather yummy meal - though a strange smell in the restaurant - where the dessert on its own would have accounted for more calories than that.

Then there was the bag of hand-picked (not by me but a friend) cherries that was at least six times the size of a portion in the supermarket and the coconut and mango cake I made because the mangoes were going off and had to be used.

But apart from that ...

And I've just noticed that apparently I was exercising for 7 of 5 days last week, which is quite clever of me. (No, I don't really understand what some of the readings mean.)

Wednesday, 21 June 2017

Why it's not a good idea to weigh twice in a day

After a hot day I showered before dinner last night. The weighing scales was still out in the bathroom so I thought, as a matter of curiosity, that I'd weigh again. BAD decision.

I was another kg heavier! Seriously? How can that be? 

They say you should weigh at the same time each week, which I do, first thing in the morning after weeing but before drinking or eating. It's accepted that your weight changes during the day but which weight is your real weight?

Definitely early morning. Those cherries I ate during the day must have been very heavy.

Tuesday, 20 June 2017

I like you roly poly

'Two pounds! How is it possible to gain two pounds in one week?'
'You eat too much,' Husband said.
I scowled at him. 'You're supposed to say the scales are lying.'
'But I like you roly poly. It's sensual and sexy. But I like you slimmer as well because I know that gives you more confidence.' (He's a lovely husband.)

Strictly speaking, according to my Rosemary Conley weigh-in, I have gained 2.5 pounds. Seriously, how is it so easy to gain but so hard to lose?

Then I remember the teacher from the RC slimming class I used to attend saying that fat cells are like balloons. the first time you blow them up it's tricky but each time they're deflated it becomes easier to blow them up again. So really, if you think about it, losing weight makes it easier to get fatter.

Also when you lose weight you need fewer and fewer calories so you have to eat less when you're thin than when you're fat. Which doesn't seem fair at all.

Right, so, proper diet ... no, I really mean it ... starts again today.

Tuesday, 13 June 2017

The danger of fruit

Lost 1 lb this week taking me just under 10 st. Not sure how that happened but I suppose there haven't been quite as many treats as the previous week. Still nibbling chocolate (on the quiet) but mostly have replaced bad snacks with fruit. Which would be okay if it were possible to eat only 2 cherries. Or one peach. And not one peach, one banana, two slices of water melon and ten cherries (at least).

I tell myself it's good for me to eat fruit but I can't buy grapes as I will eat a whole bag in one sitting.
'It's only fruit,' I tell myself. Husband overhears me.
'It's full of sugar,' he says.
I poke my tongue out at him. And eat just one more grape. One more before I put them aside. Just one more.

But now I've passed the magic 10 stone mark I should/must be focused. 

Wednesday, 7 June 2017

Nearly didn't weigh day

I was very tempted to hide from the scales this week. I felt fat.

Trouble is when I feel fat I get very negative about myself.

And when I get negative I tend to eat.

And when I eat ...

Yes, a vicious circle.

Not doing very well on this diet at all. In fact - unsurprisingly - I put on this week. Probably just over half a pound. (No, I haven't remembered to reset the scales to pounds yet.) 63.8 kg or 140.45 lbs.  Taking me just over 10st again. Almost back to where I started.

Oh phooey.

Sunday, 4 June 2017

Oh, groan

I have had so many bad days.

A barbecue on Thursday. Good intentions as always but we all know where they lead.

Friday night, a quick and easy dinner: shop pizza. Meant to just eat half but somehow it just tasted too nice.

Saturday, had two grandchildren for a sleepover and after we'd been to the park we had fish and chips for dinner sitting on the beach. Very enjoyable and I didn't eat any of the chips the grandchildren left over. But still.

Today, currently fighting with the urge to steal a piece of white cooking chocolate.

Tuesday, 30 May 2017

Weigh Day

Either the scales last week wasn't accurate or lemon sorbet is very slimming as I'm now only .1kg heavier than 2 weeks ago. (That's a quarter of a pound in English. Note to self: find manual and work out how to change scales back to stones and pounds.)

I'll settle for the latter.

Now back to serious (ah-hum) dieting.

Saturday, 27 May 2017

I really meant to just have a cup of tea

I suggested to Nuora and Younger Son that we should go to Verdi's, which is just across the road from them, because GrandSon4 is poorly and they'd had a bad night. And I really intended to have tea and nothing else.

Well, maybe a little piece of cake.

Then they suggested that Sorbet Don Carlo (lemon sorbet with raspberries), which didn't have fat in it and was really just water, would be slimming. And healthy even. 

So I had it. It probably contained just a smidgin of sugar ...

One good day ...

doth not for a holiday make up.

I had to keep telling myself that as I wandered around Sainsburys this morning. They do it on purpose, I'm sure they do. They have special offers on all the things I love: Maltesers, Cadburys Fingers and bars of chocolate. I could easily have rewarded myself for having a good diet day but I was resolute. Are you proud of me?

I took advantage of coming home to an empty fridge and scrubbed the shelves after throwing out all the things that were past their best so now I have a clean uncrowded fridge with nothing yummy in it. Well, plenty of yummy things if you count salad and ... um ... stuff.

I always keep bars of chocolate in the house for when I get an urge to cook but if Husband knows there is chocolate in the house he won't give up until he finds it. Which means not only do I have to hide all the chocolate but I have to keep changing the hiding places.

Younger Son and Nuora have been staying to look after George while we've been away, and I'd previously foolishly let Younger Son see the current location. Last night, after my good day, I might just have happened to have had a chocolate whim and cast a cursory glance in the secret hiding place.

And it was EMPTY!!!

I have learned my lesson; in future I trust no-one with the secret chocolate knowledge.

Tuesday, 23 May 2017

Reasons not to weigh

First reasons to weigh.
1) it's Tuesday;
2) there's a scales in the hotel bathroom. (What kind of hotel puts scales in the bathroom?)

Reasons not to weigh.
1) I'm on holiday;
2) the scales could be drastically inaccurate.

I weighed.

I am approximately 64.5 kg. I say approximately because:
1) the scales could be drastically inaccurate;
2) they are not digital scales and I'm ​not wearing my glasses.

Last week as far as I recall I weighed 63.4 kg, which means I have put on about 2lbs.

I knew there was a good reason for not weighing.

This fact did not stop me eating, you'll be pleased to hear. Well, I'm on holiday.

Tuesday, 16 May 2017

Weigh-in 4

-0.2 kg = not enough to get excited about. 

It doesn't help that I somehow managed to mess up my weight record on Rosemary Conley so that it's not even counting the 2 lbs I lost initially. 

Ah well, I am officially less than 10st. Only by about 3ozs but still I'm there before we go on holiday on Thursday. A week of eating a lot and not doing much will send me shooting back up I'm sure. Isn't it unfair how quickly weight goes on compared with how slowly it comes off?

On the plus side, yesterday in fitness class in the YM I was watching myself in the mirrors that line the walls. 'Hey, I'm looking pretty good,' I thought.

Obviously the thought won't linger for long as when I sit down and my tummy cuddles up with my boobs I soon remember.

It hasn't been a good week though as I've already gone into the holiday mind frame and I'm using oil to cook - well it makes things taste better than the spray oil - and not being sparing with my plate when I dish up. 

But again, on the plus side, I didn't add cheese to my dinner last night even though Husband who thought my sweet potato, spinach and chickpea bake was bland, brought it to the table.

Friday, 12 May 2017

Two very bad days!

A family barbecue and a party so have eaten far too much of the wrong stuff! 

Back to seriousness today. But that got off to a bad start when I discovered we didn't have enough milk for my weetabix so had to have toast and marmalade. But I didn't have a thick layer of butter ...

I'll get some milk and have weetabix for lunch. And as we don't have any food left in the house dinner will be meagre. that's the plan anyway.

Tuesday, 9 May 2017

Weigh-in 3

Another measly pound. Almost. Two weeks of dieting and I've lost nearly 2 pounds. 

I suppose it's better than nothing. And I've not been really strict. 

One more week until our holiday. 


Sunday, 7 May 2017

And this week's failures

Thursday was okayish. I think. A little teeny piece of chocolate may have come my way, possibly. Friday too. Oh, no, wait.

Friday I had lunch at Daughter's and she'd made a yummy pea and pecorino quiche and bread. Would have been rude not to eat it.

Saturday we were invited to younger Son and Nuora's for dinner. Delicious Chinese chicken and stir fried veg and noodles. Plus a slice of the cake I was trying out.
White chocolate and blueberry with a cheesecake topping. Hardly any calories really.

Today was going well ... until I realised the dish I'd planned - and was trying for the first time - would be much too small for Husband's appetite so i had to make chips as well. I just had to. But I didn't eat many. Not really.

Think I will have to accept the fact that I won't lose weight this week. 

Must try harder. Holidays in ten days.

Wednesday, 3 May 2017

Tomorrow is another day

Yesterday it was a a slice of birthday cake in Zac's; today it was pavlova plus a slice if lemon tart for GrandDaughter2's birthday.

Life conspires against me and my diet. I am convinced of it.

Tuesday, 2 May 2017

And so begins week 2

Week 1 weight loss = 1 lb.

Yes, you read that right. One measly pound. Yes, I know I had a few lapses but still ...

I blame Heather and James for feeding us so well last night. 

Onwards and upwards. At least I didn't gain weight.

Monday, 1 May 2017


Days 5 and 6 moderate success i.e. only minor fails. Day 7 however ...
The only positive is that the hot chocolate isn't mine!

Back on the wagon today. Except we're going out to friends' for dinner this evening ...

Thursday, 27 April 2017

Day 4 FAIL 4

Today at lunchtime in Zac's women's group I resisted:
having more than two small slices of bread;
proper mayonnaise.

I failed to resist 2 welshcakes. Not even ordinary welshcakes but split and spread with jam. I blame the police. (The cakes were leftovers from a police 'do''.)

Tonight I am not having potato with my sausages (2 low-fat) and baked beans. 

Whether I will survive the evening is another question.

Wednesday, 26 April 2017

Day 3 beginning with Day 2's FAIL

I was weak. I ate a piece of birthday cake. Incidentally one man asked how I managed to make cake so light and another said it was the best sponge cake he'd ever had. (That may be an exaggeration; he might have said best sponge he'd had for ages.) But it was only a small piece.

Today ... um, 3 smarties plus some bits of meringue when I was making dinner. Making dinner is one of my worst times of day. I always feel the need to pick at food when I'm cooking. Not necessarily the raw food I'm preparing but maybe a small lump of cheese  and, yes, I know there's no such thing as a small lump of cheese, or a handful of crunchy nut flakes. Or two handfuls. 

Oh yes, and I tried my first Mug Shot today, the cheese and broccoli one. It was surprisingly edible. But not much of it.

Thinking about food a lot.

Tuesday, 25 April 2017

Day 1 FAIL!

But it wasn't my fault! (So said every would-be slimmer ever.)

But it really wasn't. 

I decided to make the Rosemary Conley recipe of the week, which was salmon with watercress sauce - except I didn't have watercress - and the photo on the website showed it served with potatoes. So I assumed, naturally enough I think, that I could eat potatoes with it.

Turned out, when I read the recipe properly, I was supposed to have a green salad with it, not potatoes. But it was too late then; I'd already cooked , well, bought the potatoes so I was committed. 

And it didn't taste as bad as I expected.

Day 2 and the plus is that, after spending most of the day hunched over my computer, I took myself and George off for a walk. It was George's second of the day and he was none too impressed.

Day 2 and the negative is that I made birthday cake and some of the smarties just happened to jump into my mouth. And I have to try and resist eating any this evening. 

I'm not really following an online slimming plan but remembering what I did previously when I went to RC classes. The first two weeks are pretty strict; I think it's an attempt to shock my body into reacting by shedding pounds. 

Also although I'm using this Flora spray oil (1 spray = 3 calories) I suspect their idea of a spray is slightly shorter than mine.

Monday, 24 April 2017

Rosemary Conley here I come

We've just spent a weekend in a hotel. Now I don't know if the mirror in the hotel was one of those funny ones - that's what I'm hoping - but I felt hideously fat. Now I know I'm not actually hideously fat but I feel much better when I weigh about a stone less than at present so today I signed up for a Rosemary Conley online slimming course!

I did RC classes a few years ago and was successful at losing weight but they weren't online, we had a brilliant and fun teacher in Cherie, and included an exercise session, so I don't know how well I'll do with this. It's mainly the incentive value: I've paid for the quarter so I should jolly well make sure I lose weight.

Hence my shopping list for Sainsburys this morning included very low fat cheese spread, very low fat sausages and two packets of Mug Shots. Even as I'm taking them off the shelf I'm thinking, 'These are going to be horrible,' but I'm not very good at lunches. I like something quick and there are only so many days you can eat ryvita. And they contain less than 2% fat. In fact they probably contain very little of any substance or worth but I'll let you know what they taste like when I've sampled them.

Tuesday, 14 March 2017

Here we go again

Finally dared to get on the scales after a long absence - illness/unexpected hospitalisation, Christmas, death (not mine obviously), and general winteriness have all combined to help pile on the pounds. So I was quite pleased to discover that I am only 10 st. I say only - I still want to lose half a stone - but I feared it would be a great deal more.

Actually it said 63.8 kg. It's somehow changed its measure and I can't work out how to get back to pounds. I probably could if I had both the manual and my glasses in my hands at the same time but as I seem to have misplaced the book that seems unlikely.

So with paper and pencil in hand I worked out that 63.8 x 2.2 = 140 lbs. More or less. A bit more really but close enough.

It doesn't help that our circuit training class that I've been attending for at least ten years has finished. (I know: you'd expect me to be a lot slimmer and fitter after that.) But, all being well, I shall be organising a gentle fitness class for women after Easter, so I will get a bit of exercise at least. Plus I must try to walk George more. That's something else that went by the wayside over the last hectic months. (I should point out that George has been walked but not much by me.)

And generally be more active! I.e. get off this computer!